[Current Mood: Sympathetic]

I'll keep this feeling solely to myself, everything has been quite a blur and i'm quite taken aback by the unexpacted death of my bestfriend's mum. Being bestfriends for an approximate of 6 years, i knew, how depresing and heartbreaking for her to lead her life now without her mum. But i know, she's gonna deal this strong.

I don't really know how to react or how to console her. I tried my very best but all i see was tears of sadness from her. I'm aware that, how much smile she faked so that, cousins and relatives will not worry abot her and her siblings, everything is gonna be different now. Life's different without a mum and i believe so.

Nothing in the world can comapre to a mother's love.

Dear Khairiyah,

We'll pray for her and hope she's in good hands of GOD. We know GOD has been fair and i'm confident about that, hopefully Haven is her stay. AMIN..

And this tiny life is making alot of sense to me right now.

[Current Mood: Estatic]

I hope i don't get my period tommorrow cause i'm going out with the Vanquiz :) Yeeebah! Exactly, since my guy doesn't own a bike this year cause it's in the workshop, so we're gonna do the outing via car!! YAY! :))

I bet this is gonna be good.

Anyway photos are from today. It gets pretty frustrating, cause apparently, so many things happened but i don't know where to start and, in addition i'm dead tired! So likewise, i think, i might not write or host a pretty good entry today with perfect english because theres, spelling, grammar and vocabulary to worry about.

Like Saiful said to my sister: "Bilang your kakak, gi amek spelling lesson"

On a happier note, today was open house. So i invited the boyfriend as well. :))

Tau! Aku slalu sebok2 je. HAHAHHAA.

See, they are pretty much excited. Don't ask me why.

Then after that, we took bus No. 5 to catch a movie at Lido. See the Bus is wayyy beyond cool. I supposed, it's being sponsored by F&N

The Mat-rep sempat berposing la seyy..

Anyway, today everything went really fast. And im glad today was GOOD.

As i thought, i would have died if i didnt go shopping. Anway today was rather productive. Went shopping early in the morning at 11:30am :)) Alone okay!



After shopping, i went home and get ready as i need to go to the boyfriend's aunty house at Woodlands. So i had to prepare the clothes that we gonna wear :)


So this is basically what we wear!
Tell me my shoes are nice!! :))

After bathing, i did my makeup.



The Make-up that took 56 months to finish!



Wore my kebaya, and finally time check, i took 3 hours to get myself ready!

Presenting you.. Me and the Boyfriend at Aunt's House.

Morning. and i certainly love off days cause i can sleep.

EDIT/ Today my most deared-guy-manager comes to work without putting on his hair gel. I cant stop smilling when i see him. Cause i think he looks so GONG GONG.

Hahahha. Now, i have to laugh silently in my heart till he gets himself a new tub of gel cause his face look so funny and ridiculous.

MUAHAHAHAHAA!

On a happier note, today was good dinner with the boyfriend at LIDO. Funny how, today the boyfriend talks alot of sense about the future. For once, i felt he has grown and it feels as if i'm talking to a well-grown man mentally and emotionally. Well even if it's for a minute. Skip that.As for now, im broke. Yup i spent like 4.999/5 of my pay entirely on shopping. And the remaining were on transport. Considering the many trips i do to chua chu kang recently.

I think Swarovski is getting really political lately. This is bad, i have been commited there for nearly a year and it seems that politics are getting really tensed at times. Not to mention, staffs are transfering themselves in and out.Well, the thing about me, as much as i don't deal quite well with liars, i also hate people who's afraid to tell the truth. Many have been constructing stories just to save themselves from their wrongdoings and this is bad because it boils down and the truth will be discovered one day.

So you see, this is life. The unfair life we lead. But, then again, it's all about the money. :))

Dear YOU,

My efforts in trying to be friends with you failed. Can you tell me again why you're still holding on? And for over a thousand times i have been re-reminding myself not to be so into you.

Maybe I'm to blame.

Yes i have not been updating for quite a while maybe because i fell that there's nothing much to update bout but atleast now i do.

Whatever it is, i'm having flu and fever concurrrently. Sigh. It's sad when the work roster shows a fullshift tommorow and bythewayyy let me tell you the only soul that goes Vivo in the wee hours of the morning at 10:00am is me! Because i had to take some stock at Swarovski. Neverthemind. Fetch the boyfriend from camp today. Oh yes, don't mention it, im a good girlfriend :)

I cant type, i'm damn lethargic, maybe tomorrow i make ammendments to this enrty. For now i host the pictures only. It was fun helping the aunt with the shifting.

By the way, my aunt's new house is at Sengkang now. So far from us.. The Bedok clent.

Bottom line of this entry, Fatin penat.

Hello world.

Working with SIA was a new experience for me. It's extremly fun and not to mention the fucking good pay you bring back after a day's work. I was on contract for 2 days and i brought hom $210. Shiok la baby! The bar-tenders were xxtremly good looking and ya. FLIRTATIOUS! X-TREME!! 8 OUT 10 were made up of matreps. So basically after the whole event cum fucntion, there were 2 guys that came up to me and wants me to work with them. HAALILUYAAA. yay! And of course numbers were flying everywhere.

and on top of that i'm one the first to witness

SINGAPORES WORLD'S LARGEST AIRPLANE A380

Anyway, yesterday i went out with Hairil and the friends. Erm. Okay, that's about it. I won't elaborate more. Do the thinking yourself. :))

And

And

And

why does my opening line sound so formal! Damn!

The last time i wore formal was during my presentation days in school. It was only when i wore the formal shirt i realsied how much i missed school. Anyway i'm working at airport again today! Terminal 3! As a bartender ya! It's fucking good pay!

"I've this strange feeling that you'll take me away, but i'm only physically attracted to you."

[Current Mood: Recumbent]
[Current Song: Potential Breakup Song- Aly and AJ]

I send this beloved cousin of mine to camp last Sunday at Pasir Laba

Yesterday i had a very sleepless night, hopefully today isn't the same thing again and and and i hope that china-gal won't call me again at 4:00am today. Or i'll squeeze her tetek if she does. I told her like 58694 times that she's gotten the wrong number but she insisted to keep calling for about an hour. KAU GILE EY? Anyway, i need a good sleep or I'll wake up feeling like shit and there will be an uncomfortable feeling due to the sleep deprived that I feel. Well, that's the whole point of feeling sick isn't it, to feel shitty.

Well,

You know, you're kinda crazy when you have the same song repeated more then 23 times on your playlist. Oh wells, i've learnt something today. I can NEVER go shopping with the boyfriend. I was along the stretch of Orchard from 4:00pm till 8:30pm, plainly doing my shopping for my sis birhday present and partly for myself as well. The boyfriend turned up at the scene only at 7:45pm. And guess what! There goes the naggy and cranky boyfriend when i made him walk from Far East to Paragon to Heeren. Gosh! It's hard to go shopping with guys.

The only guy that i went shopping with and willingly and full hearted-ly accomapny me go shopping was Wan. Wan-Skunz. Yes. He followed me shopping and i get very uneasy after a while cause no guys actually followed me with my shopping cause they'll get tired. Really.

Nevertheless, it's quite impossible to drag guys to go shopping with you nowadays. So if you have guys who accompany you to do the shopping. Oh! Be thankful. And byyyytheway, tommorow marks the first day working at airport termial 3. I'll update more soon. Till then nite nite world.

[Current Mood: Melancholy]
[Current Song: Seloka Lebaran]

Boy i'm beginning to doubt your love.

"I wish i had a crystal ball
to tell me that if this is all worth it all"

HAHHAHAHAA.

[Current Mood: Working]

[Current Song: Lil Star-Kelis feat Cee Lo]

Maybe, i shall not be so vulgar since it's only the 2nd Day of Syawal. But currently, im depressed, oppressed, suppressed and menstruating.Obviously like always, my computer has been re-re-starting itself evry now and then and not to mention the internet connection is CRAP. Some say its the "virus" attack.

Like always, i don't give a fuck with what's going on with the computer. Until one day it decide to computer-sucide, then you'll see me begging and crying like a neneh. But whatever it is, today mum did an impromptu open-house. It's so unplanned that the kuih kuih is still in the kitchen's cabinet. Moving on, i was caught up with the helping that i didn't come to realise that my uncle and my cousin has actaully been busy operating my computer and guess what they help me to reslove the virus tingy by rebuting the whole computer! HOLY SHIT! Now all my songs are gone!!! WTF! Right now, the only source of music i have is from the beloved www.myamendment.blogspot.com Not to mention having a raya song repeated for like 204834 times is kinda dreading yaw.

Anyone is kind enought to let me have good songs and copy them to my desktop pretty please.. Well perhaps positively i must thanks zaid and cik taufik for helping me with the computer,everything look so new now, erm.. ya i guess i have to download everything back again. Patience is all it takes.

Well here are some pictures of today raya with the family and relatives. Oh yes, incase you're wondering rite, since day one, my baju kurung and kebaya (including my sis) are all hand sewed by mum. Nice rite? :))

Now, that i have hosted 3 pictures of myself in white kurung, tell me you're jealous! :))

[Current Mood: Rejuvenated]

YAY! Today is the first day of Raya! and it feels god-damn-good. Cause early in the morning, i heard AYAM MASAK MERAH calling my name. :)

Whatever it is, it's family gathering back again after eons. Seriously, my life has all been about work and i have not met my relatives since then. Im glad today everything was good. The food, the poeple, the kuihs and ya everything! I predict tommorw is even better.

Till then embrace yourself with the overlaod pictures.

Me and my Beloved sister (Aqilahshakini)

Over at Chai Chee-Kamal's House

My cousins, the big and the small

Incase you're wondering where's the sari that i planned to wear on first day of Raya, go ask Swarovski! They still have not given me my $1000 cheque! BOO HOO HOO!

So, we cleaned the house, raise the curtains, do the bed, spread the carpet, arrange the cookies, mop the floor, sweep the rooms, vacuum the hallway, cook the rendang, make the ketupat. Oh yes Malam Raya is love not to mention, TV shows are exceptionally goooood.

I hate myself for being so attached to you
when you know im attached
see la..you started it!
you know you shouldn't have..

Cam mane skarang?

Wait!

Nak gathering ape! Matair aku da tkde motor! HAHAHHAA.

With these, i'll stretch out my sincere apologies to all riders from Vanquiz, Seven Diamond, KFC Siglap , Pizza Hut Siglap and also Canadian Siglap for all the wrong deeds that i have done be it intentionally or unintentionally And i wana say,

It's hard to say or even predict
but one thing's for sure,
you have been the one letting me breathe.

Go sister! It's your birthday

We're gonna party like its your birthday.

Happy 17th Birthday!

Blog mode: ON

Hello.

Finally i'm settling down to a proper entry :) It feels good sitting in the comfort of my room, listening to the random songs my windows media player got to play and at the same time hugging the very warm duvet in a chilly night. What more can i ask for right. Well perhaps, a huge cup of vanilla tea latte from Coffee Bean will do wonders.

Well,

I have been pretty busy with work and somehow, my life revolves around making more $$ money everyday. Sad how i didnt spent my entire 3 months of holidays with the friends except Ahmad. My weekends are family and the boyfriend. Weekdays are purely work work work. Anyway, today isnt about ranting so i shall forsee a good and productive entry today. :)) Anyway regarding the previous entry about the stalker, somehow Nur Fatin Ajman is very popular in Centerpoint. HAHHAA. I kidd i kidd. It happened that there's this very CUUUUTEE guy selling SIN'S Chocolate few shops away from Swarovski came up to me and say "U, Ade orang nak beli kan you teddy bear ekh on Sunday!" I mean wow! I didnt know working in a shopping center, news can spread pretty fast. Amazing.Oh whatever it is, his Cute! :D

Moving on,

All this Hu-ha about Raya is taking a toll on me cause apparently, my pay has not arrived yet! :( My Spetember pay! The $1000 pay of pure hard work is not out yet :( and i still hadnt bought my accessories to go along with my baju raya, i haven't got my shoes yet and i have not gotten my bags yet! It's killing me to wait for the cheque. Damn! Oh ya, you know its 4 more days to Lebaran and i'm practically counting every day! and it's almost a month of fasting and finally yesterday i got the nerve to get on the weighing scale and guess what, i didnt loose any pound nor i gain any! Okay! Im stagnant! HHAHAHA. I so can't wait for Raya. The curtains are already sewed, the new bed for my room is in, the newly pillow cases are in, the toilets painted, and ya the kuih-kuih done!

I rate my kuih-kuih 99/10
(flips hair)

HAHHAA. Okay.

Me and the boyfriend is wearing white this year! Erm. Hairil's white as well, anyone else?

Oh, yes i might not be the first to say this, and i bet with my toes someone must have complained this earlier then me, next semester timetable kinda SUCK! Night class? Dude, Fatin will end up sleeping in lecture. Damn, well i'll make do whatver it takes it's my final yearrrrr! YES FINAL!! AND THEN.....I don't know what to do! Someone, plan a timetable for my life please cause apparently i have been living for 19 years with the prescence of a timetable and after nxt year i'm all independent and the BIG 2 is hitting on me. Damn i'm old. I hate the counting down to my 20 yrs old. BOO HOO HOO.

Okay till then, oh yes before i forget, i forgot to wish this publically cause i'm so caught up with work

[Current Mood: Intimidated]

It's on a sunday.

I was working on a full shift (10:30-9:30pm). Everything went perfectly fine till at 9:00pm a customer walk in to my shop and when staight to the counter where i was standing and say..

Me: Hi! Welcome, is there anything i can help?
Cust: Oh i can't help staring at you.
Me: heheheh...oh tnks for the compliment.

I mean there's quite a handful of customers that came in to my shop just to compliment and then browse around and off they go. But this is different. He striked up a conversation of how's he's life, why LKY doesnt like him and why he have to migrate to Australia you know all those bullshit and as a sales girl all you can do is to "ya...ya...(nod my head) and ya... ya..." The convo lasted till 9:30pm. So i was giving him 5858490604 hints that i'm gonna close the shop soon. But guess what he says

"Are you chasing me out of this shop??"

So i signalled my colleugue to pull down the shutter. A normal customer reaction will go out of the shop once the shutter is pulled down. But instead he stayed inside the shop. And he says

"Fatin, I want your number if not i will not go out of the shop!"

By this time i know everything is wrong. Really wrong. I'm so scared cause he doesnt want to go out of the shop. My friend told me to give him a fake number. I was reluctant to give him my fake number because i'm afraid if he called me and finally found out its the wormng number, he will come back to the shop and find me.Mampos siak. So after giving the number, he went out of the shop, and waited for me outside the shop. By then, i'm like SHIT SHIT SHIT. I'm already in my tears for sure i've got another stalker! I was so scared cause i'm alone and no one was fetching me home.

I called the boyfriend he told me to run, i mean that wasn't kinda helpful where does he want me to run?? He's practically outside of my shop knocking against the shutter to tell me his outside waiting for me. It's insane. I WAS TREMBLING LIKE SHIT. My friend was obviously scared as well, both of us don't know what to do cause we don't have Centerpoint security's number. In desperate situation, i called Hairil up. It was nice cause his instant reaction was okay "Okay, okay, i turun town. U tunggu." But the fact that he comes to town by cab might take him donkey years to arrive. So i prayed and hoped for someone to come along, luckily my collegues husband planned to help me out to pretended to be my boyfriend.

As i opened the shutter guess who was outside to save me. Not the boyfriend, not my collegues husband, not Hairil but ...

TENSSENSOHN LEE AMES!!!!!!

Omg, i gave him a good hug and cry. all i said to him was

"LEE!! PRETEND LEE PRETEND"

It was great cause he understood me and hugged me till we reached the bustop, i was cold, trmebling, shivering all at the same time. Oh my, my scandyang just saved my day. LEE I OWE YOU! Anyway,the bottom line of this entry is that i wana say thank you to Lee and Hairil for the care and concern :D

[Current Mood: Excited]

At 9:30 am, the boyfriend called me up and say

HAHHAHA. See he must have got the inspiration from his dream. :)) Anway it was good. Museum is HUUUGEE with a capital H. Really. We came at 4:00pm and still have not covered the entire area at 6:00pm. It's more then just looking around cause you have to eventually listen to the gadget's that's given to you, somehow it will pe your personal guide tour in the museum. It was a new experience. Go try

For those serving the nationla service, its $5 bucks
and to those who are not, its $10 bucks.

Yup i had to pay the full price and the bf had the half price. So unfair.

So apparently after that, we headed to Plaza Singapura to break our fast and played arcade while waiting for Resident's Evil- Extinction movie. I must say! The story is SUPERB! Go catch it! Ps: you've got to watch the part 1 and 2 to understand it :)

[Current Mood: Accomplished]

So apprently on Thursday, i was sick cause i had Mam's (i don't know if it's spelt this way.) Whatever it is i was, i didnt go to work and i know that if i go to the doctor, i will get 2 weeks MC so i think i'll just pass the idea of seeing the doctor. Because i was in pain at home, i thought i might as well pamper myself and get myself a hairdo! So ya i decided to go blonde and bleach my hair! :)) And gues what, at the 3rd bleaching, i could stand the pain, i told the hairdresser that i'm satisfied with the color already, i think going blonde could have killed me. Now my head-scalp is feeling super itchy as though a thousand mosquitoes are feeding on it. :((

Anway the result is still GOOOOOOD!